Seek God for your own life, your anointing and your relationship with Him, don't seek someone else's. Remember that your race of faith is public, not private.
You need to learn to long for God's discipline. First, get rid of sin and run towards your goal.
The Lord has fixed his eyes on us because we were so broken, so weak, that the only light that can come out of us is the light of Jesus. That way, people will forget about you but remember Jesus. This race requires a coach: the Holy Spirit!