Timothy was a young pastor like you, but Paul reminded him that he was a soldier of Jesus Christ.
The church is not a meeting; the church is the army of God, which means that you are a soldier in His army.
You cannot forget that once the conference is over, there is a battlefield to which you must go, you have a mission to accomplish, our purpose is to overcome the darkness. God decided to create you in this time with the battles that this generation is facing, He is waiting for you to fight that battle. Pay the price of the gospel!